I don't know, as stupid as this sounds, the hatred towards myself is more internal than external now. So now it's just thoughts and internal damage instead of physical damage that people can see. To me, that's better I think. But then again, I always say, as long as I look alright on the outside, I don't give a fuck about the inside.
I can look in the mirror for longer than half an hour now, which I think is a big achievement for me, because it used to be no longer than 10 minutes and I'd start literally trying to rip my skin off. Idek.
I get my laptop back tomorrow, well, should, but I'm happy about it, and I have to delete the internet history on this laptop and give it back to my aunty because she'd be kind of shocked lawl.
I would write more, but there's a bit that I want to write about someone and I don't want to risk them seeing it because it would fuck everything up, so I'm going to write it on my personal blog. So yeah, if you look at this from Tumblr and want to see it, ask me for the link and I'll send it to you.
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