I think of the people who actually like me, and I can think of 1 person who I think likes me but she probably can't stand me.
I think about myself and I get this pain in my stomach because I hate myself that much.
I just watched a video of myself from September, I wasn't very happy then but I was happier than I wan in the Summer which was good for me. I miss it so much, I miss being that me, I miss not caring. I miss having friends. I miss having people care about me. I miss me caring about myself. Nobody gives a shit anymore, nobody texts or messages me because they know I'm not worth the time.
The bad thing is that I don't see any way out of this, I honestly don't. I don't see how I'm going to drag myself out of this.
I want to fucking rip my skin off. I make myself so sick, just ugh. How the fuck can I live with myself?
Disgusting filthy whore dirty bitch stop
I don't get how II carry on and how I think I'm going to havea future and be success full at somethung e#t hofjxl fucking
I just fucking can't
II don't want help
Invisible
stupid
fat
whore
fake plastic bitch
pile on some more fuccking makeuo
people can still see the whore
Nobody cares to lsten
Everyone scrolls past
People I think will care don't want to get involved because it's too much for them
top yourself
grab the razors
SELF DE FUCKING STRUCT
jump
jump
fuckin run and jump and splat
